I'm afraid, this time, I sort of settled.
After about ten drafts, I finally finished five pages of Misao/Aoshi. I'm not proud of it--it has to be the heaviest, draggiest, most cumbersome writing I've ever had the temerity to post. But I'm hoping that all this loathing I have for the latest chapter is just the culmination of all the effort I've plugged into it after having written and rewritten ad nauseam for the past week and a half, and the truly despicable summer weather we're having at the moment.
My sincerest apologies to my readers who have to suffer what I know isn't my best work. As the Author Notes say, I'm open to all constructive criticism, so that I can rework the damn thing into something a little more palatable. But for now--coming from this unworthy one's end--I think that's as far as I can go. T.T
About the "cancerous growth," ChiisaiLammy--ugh, I know exactly what you mean.
I've never had a beta reader in my life, so I decided ultimately against getting one for this installment... so instead I'm offering this up to all and sundry. (Is it just me, or does that not make a whole lot of sense?)
Until the next volley of rotten eggs, I'll just be here, moping over Misao and moving on to the next chapter--which, thank God, should have very little weasel in it.
Man, I give up... @.@
P.S. Best wishes to eriesalia-sama with Misao in "Blades." At least, once you read my chapter, you'll know what not to do.
I'm sorry minna-dono, I'm just terribly down about this...