Yare yare... here's hoping *knocks on wood* I come up with something decent soon. As much as I deprive myself of sleep, proper nutrition, and academic endeavor whenever I write, I just don't feel quite right not thinking about what sort of new heartache I'll cook up for the next installment.
And yes, I really mean the "tsuzuku" at the end of Chapter Nineteen. *grits teeth in determination*
I kind of want to make a Chapter Twenty--just to bring it to a nice even number--but that seems rather like pushing it too far. ^.^;
Anyway, Real Life has loomed large in my thoughts of late, instead of the Kenshingumi--senior year in college, time to think of a career, graduate studies, et cetera. So maybe that's where my previously RK-devoted energies are going. Sigh. Wish I were like Hugh Grant in "About a Boy"--never have to work a day in my life. Then I could just go off into the mountains and, er, make pottery and drink sake... yeah, sounds like a nice lifestyle to me.
On a more serious note, I find it odd, and uncomfortable, this sudden loss of interest of mine in MnM. *gasp!* I don't know if it's just RL again working its insidious poison into me, eating away at my former enthusiasm, or just the passing of a phase (as things tend to go with me)... What I do know is that this didn't happen to me at the end of Yoake Mae. @.@ And--less reliably--I don't remember feeling like this at the completion of any of my earlier fics.
I suppose I should just go with the flow of my soul and all, and let go if I must and if I can no longer hold on--but the RK fandom is just so warm and cozy that I really do want to stay on a lot longer... *snif*
Speaking of the RK fandom (and on a lighter note), the RKDreams forum is quite rapidly coming back to life. Yay, yay! ^.^ Slowly but surely, the members are checking back and livening up the boards again. Kudos limitlessly due to the diligent admins for patching the forum back up, of course. ^.^ Lots of interesting new threads popping up, and plenty of old ones being revived. *makes like Judy Garland at the Wicked Witch's castle* Come back, everyone! Come back!
Particularly happy that Shimizu Hitomi, while on her indefinite hiatus from fanfic writing, is still active on the forum. Having seen most of the "older generation" of RK lovers fade out, I'd have an especially hard time accepting the passing of the "newer generation"... as is inevitable, I'm afraid.
On the other hand, FFnet has been surprisingly quiet for me the past few weeks. Is everyone else busy with RL too? *pout* Oh well, I just wish everybody good luck on their tests and jobs and whatnot, and hope to see their Author Alerts popping up in my inbox soon. I'm hungering for updates--other people's, that is. ^.^
Till the next spark of inspiration, then...
